Problem-based Learning is the base of problems in learning~

Assalamualaikum~

First of all, I know most of you guys know that the title above is not originally from this head of mine but I 'cilok' from Asri. I just love that statement and I 98% agree with him. Just the right moment when I want to express every kind of feelings I have towards PBL, Asri wrote that entry of his. So, since I'm too busy to think of another phrase for the title of my entry tonight, I'll just take his...ahahaha! Gomen!

There! PBL (Problem-based learning)! The bane of my existence, aside from exams and studying. ahaha... Everytime there's PBL, stress tags along. Whether it's too much to handle or too hard to grasp. Every session, there's always and I mean ALWAYS some things that we couldn't figure out from the scenario given. Somehow they don't really connect with what we're supposed to be learning. I'm not sure that I even know how PBL works even though I've gone through like hundreds(exaggerating~) of them! And discussing didn't help much. I think it made things even difficult to "solve". Man!

I despise this...

I'm living in a world of anger and frustration...what could ever make me happy?

Current mood: Irritated
Listening to: Let me hear your voice by Big Bang

Queuing~

Assalamualaikum~

Last Saturday, my friends and I went to Taman Anggrek (it's actually a mall) to watch a movie (2012) and it was my first time going there after about a month putting off shopping and stuff. Second time to the cinema and I didn't expect it to be filled with people lining up to buy tickets for 2012. They were soooo long that I nearly gave up queuing without even trying. There were like ONLY 2 or 3 counters and about 1000 people there. Since we're already used up our pocket money to go there, might as well just queue, buy the tickets and watch the movie. Plus, I didn't have that much opportunity to go to malls, so I went to the end of the line which was exactly the last available space to stand *not really* ngah3~ After about 30 long minutes, my friends took over in lining up and bought the tickets later that afternoon. One down, another two to go.

The lines at the cinema...

Hmm, in the mean time, we walked around the mall not buying anything *sengkek..ahahaha*. Killing time. Bored. Enjoying ourselves. Independence day. Freedom. _saye sdg mengarut_

Okay, then when the movie was over, my friends and I wanted to go straight home coz we're so tired and sleepy plus we had spent like 10 hours doing nothing but walked and walked and walked like crazy. Unfortunately, there were like 100 people lining up *again!* for taxis. Oh my goodness...why wouldn't they just stay home and spend some quality time with their family? Nak taknak terpakse la beratur lagi skali...as a bonus we got like two guys smoking, in front and behind us. Great~!

While waiting for a taxi...

At last after what seemed like an eternity, we got our taxi we're supposed to go straight home which was about 2km from the mall. And I took us more that an hour to reach there. Wanna know why? Queuing, that's why! We got stuck in traffic like right in front of the mall for more that 50 minutes, and it was so hard to get out of it. Once we got out from the traffic or "macet" as they called it, we finally reached home and sitting in that taxi for so long made me wanna sleep right away. Ahahaha....QUEUE...I hate that word right now~


Listening to : Russian Roulette by Rihanna

What a week~

Assalamualaikum~

I just finished a "block" of dreadful subjects that includes philosophy of science, critical thinking, research methodology and study skills. The last 3 weeks were so horrible that I felt as if life itself had been taken out of me. For me, philosophy is what I think of the grim reaper. Once we students step into the hall for lectures on philosophy of science, the shine on faces gets dimmer and eventually gone after what seemed like ages. Oh those classes were BORING and I could say that it was incomprehensible or beyond my (and I guess most of the others') understanding. Plus, there's 4 books that our lecturer asked to read which were equally boring and not something that my mind could interpret. Blergh...

I just want to share about what my friends and I had to go through in order to face the philosophy exam when all of us were so busy that we couldn't even finish reading one of the books. They weren't that thick, they're just too hard to understand and it took so much of our time and energy to comprehend what they are trying to deliver in the books...

The night before the exam *philosophy of science specifically*, I slept like about one and a half hours and the rest of the day studying on that subject. Oh my, it's tiring I tell you. It's not because of the "not sleeping" but because of the "not understanding" part. It was as if learning alien language. PEH!

The day of the exam, I felt horrible, anxious, agitated and uneasy. I kept forgetting all the main points. All mixed up in my brain and I couldn't assemble the overflowing information in my brain that I felt as if they were poured out off my ears and leaving my brain half-empty (or completely empty..ahaha). I had to keep asking my friends to explain everything to me right before the exam so that I could refresh my memory (as if I had any left..) *Thanks Faiqah*

I also want to thank my friends who joined the study group that night. It helped me a lot and I hope that it did to you guys too...I wouldn't be able to answer the questions if it weren't for you guys.

I hope that we all pass the exam and that we don't have to undergo any one of those horrible nights...SAY NO TO REMEDIAL n SP (short semester)~

Listening to: Goodbye by Jang Geun Seuk

Asyiqin's Theories...

Assalamualaikum~

Today I want to share with you guys theories that I've came up with after *years of observations and analyses plus studies on 1000 random girls and guys from all over the world. These theories are not inclined to any specific subjects or fields. They are just theories from many aspects of life. Ahhaha..so here~

Asyiqin's Theories
1. One will never or seldom realize someone's existence until those involved are properly introduced. Once they know the other person's name/info or at least get familiar with his/her face, therefore one will always bump into or see him/her and realize that the other person is always there wherever you are.

2. One will always have a connection with at least one person of his/her friend's friends.
The term 'friend' is subjective. Different people consider differently for someone to become friends. So it doesn't matter whether you are great friends or so-so friends or enemies as long as you know the person.

P.S The theories above are not really proven to be true or can be applied to everybody. They are merely jokes I made. I, too, want to make theories like Newton or Einstein. ahahaha!!!

*Very true story! ahahah...IJK!

My Current Craze~

Assalamualaikum~

Unlike the weeks before, this week has been particularly pleasant with a bit of buziness during the PBL sessions which were stressful, to say the least. But all the "mandiri"s really help conquer my mind and body over those uninvited and unwanted feelings. So, what I did during all those free time after lectures was..what else? Watching korean drama! There's a new drama just recently "debuted" on the 7th of October and I think it's very fresh and unique despite the religious belief displayed most of the first episode.

Very refreshing! New sides being shown by each of the casts...

The name of the drama is You're Beautiful and if I'm calculating right, today is the day the fifth episode being aired. But clearly I have to wait a little later for me to be able to download it plus subtitles will be out much2 later which a bit frustrating...nonetheless, much appreciation to the subbers who worked really hard to satisfy the kdrama fanatics (which includes me..ahaha).

I don't want to ruin the excitement that I know you all fanatics out there are feeling now. So I will skip with the synopsis of the first 4 episodes. *Actually I watched the 3rd n 4th episodes without subtitle..so I can't really tell how the story goes, I just assume things go my way..ahaha*

It will never be easy~

Assalamualaikum~

You see...I've always hoped to lead a simple life. But I know and realize that life will never be easy. There's lots of things to discover, to explore and to exploit throughout our lives.

I know now that I can't just sit around and play games on Facebook and chatting away with friends miles away in another foreign country.

In fact, now I feel so anxious every time I have nothing to do. I feel like I need to study or at least do something beneficial.

*Like always, I've been channelling my anxiety and restlessness by watching movies* Unfortunately, movies can't wash them away anymore.

I think too much and now everything seems so important and urgent that I have to push aside all those small things that used to make me feel better. I need to expect that my life will always be hectic and boring especially when I'm taking a course on medicine. Haaaah~

Like one of my friends said to me...I panic too easily. She said I need to relax and enjoy my life and not make it any more complicated. *My parents said the exact same thing* I guess they're right. I really do need to relax and take a deep breath once in a while. DEEP BREATH~ ommm...

What the future holds~

Assalamualaikum~

Hmm..bile skali ade mase nk update blog...dtg la mcm2 idea dlm kepala ni nk tulis ape...
OK2...Seperti yang dinyatakan di atas...kita tak akan tau ape yang akan terjadi pada kita atau orang lain masa depan..ataupun lima minit akan datang. Saye ni mule la risau2 pasal ape dah jadi ngan dunia ni. Nak kuar rumah sorg2 pon takut. This world is not a safe place to live. I have to travel through space and land on the moon. Build a mansion there with my family and trustworthy friends *ignore the fact that we can't really live there because of lack of oxygen..just play along ayte!* It would be sooo much better if everyone in this world love and care for each other. Children can play without their parents worrying, girls can walk home from school, women can carry purses all they want. Why does cruelty has to exist? Why won't it extinct? Why do bad guys...and girls exist? Why can't we live happily together and don't have to ever think about anything bad happen to any of us? WHY? WHY? WHY? I'm 19 and I'm already worrying about the future generations...We just have to think..it doesn't cost you anything. Just think! Think before you leap. "Fikir dulu sebelum buang". Buang I'm referring to is the future... So just think!

When people don't think the way you think...

Assalamualaikum~

Ahhh...today was such a horrible disaster. I was expecting the obvious to happen and it had. It was so silly of me to even think of them as adults when they are clearly just a bunch of children wanting to play all the time. I just hope that they would at least accept some of my ideas but unfortunately and guiltlessly just shove them away and make their own decisions as if I'm not one of "them" (like I want to?). A whole lot of mature and acceptable points given to them with open heart and without an ounce of I-keep-things-to-myself attitude but they ignored me...IGNORED. Arghh!!! They are just impossible to work with. Children think alike. Those useless group discussions! They just chat and chat and chat among themselves + EAT. Hellooo!!!! It's a discussion...so discuss already!

Plus, during lectures..I feel like sitting with kindergarteners. They talk too much!


P.S I just can't hold it in any longer..I need to get this out of me. They are eating me inside out.

I want to read, write and be proud!

Assalamualaikum~

I haven't read a single book (English) since Twilight series which was about 2 years ago. I feel so inadequate. So lost. So speechless. I can't even write a paragraph without having to think through of the words I'm suppose to use. I'm taking too much time thinking than writing down words that seemed so easily popped into my head before. Now I have to find the words that I know I had it right at the back of my head. It is so frustrating knowing that what you've been working for all these years are beginning to vanish itself in thin air. You are so helpless that you can only watch it happens without having the chance to grasp them tight so that you could stop them from doing just that. I realize quite clearly that I am not as good as an author of a bestselling book but I have to know that I can at least have the words that I've been using all this years right there up in my small lazy brain. Connect those neurons! Help me search the things that I've lost...Memory fading, body not responding! White flag!


P.S: This entry is full of useless blabber... One sentense don't always have connections with the others. They are of different perspectives/topics...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!!!!

Assalamualaikum~

Hope I'm not too late..."Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri" to every Muslim in the world~

Still...I miss home!

When I Look At You..

Assalamualaikum~

Here's a song that I recently became addicted to...by Miley Cyrus (like usual..hahaha)

Everybody needs inspiration,
Everybody needs a soul
A beautiful melody
When the nights so long

Cause there is no guarantee
That this life is easy...

Yea when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I...
I look at you

When the waves
Are flooding the shore and I can't
Find my way home anymore
That's when I, I...
I look at you

When I look At You I see forgiveness
I see the truth
You love me for who I am
Like the stars Hold the moon
Right there where they belong
And I Know I'm Not Alone.

Yea when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I...
I look at you

When the waves
Are flooding the shore and I can't
Find my way home anymore
That's when I, I...
I look at you

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like Kaleidoscope colors that
Cover Me, All I need every
Breath that I breathe don't you know
Your beautiful...

Yea Yea Yea

When the waves
Are flooding the shore and I can't
Find my way home anymore
That's when I, I...
I look at you
I look at you

Yea Yea Oh OH OH

And you appear Just like a dream
To me.

Listening to: When I Look At You by Miley Cyrus

My First Accident~

Assalamualaikum~

Hmm...it's been a while~
I had a bad day...I had my first accident ever in a foreign country...
It was fast and undeniably scary~
There's tension everywhere...
people blaming people...
pointing fingers~
Thank God the man was okay...
And thank you seniors and friends for helping me cope with that unwanted circumstance...
although I did cry once or twice...not knowing what to do...
I don't want to be in that situation ever again!

Keinginan Yang Membuak-buak Dalam Diri...

Assalamualaikum~
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

Setelah menunaikan 20 hari berpuasa di bulan Ramadhan...tinggallah selebihnya 10 hari terakhir Ramadhan dan peluang untuk kita berpuasa pada tahun ini. Inilah kali pertama saya menjalani ibadah puasa dan insyaALLAH hari raya Aidilfitri akan datang tanpa keluarga di sisi. Tambahan lagi berada di tempat yang asing lagi berbeza, kemahuan saya untuk pulang ke kampung halaman semakin membuak-buak walaupun hanya lebih 2 minggu berada di perantauan. Baru kini kusedar betapa sukarnya hidup tanpa dapat melihat keluarga di sisi setiap hari dan tidak tahu keadaan mereka nun jauh di sana. Bagaimana harus aku menempuhi 6 tahun di tempat baru ini, hanya bertemankan semangat yang tipis dan rapuh.

Teman-temanku seringkali berfikir bahawa diriku ini adalah seorang yang tabah dan mampu hidup berdikari kerana telah dilatih begitu sejak masuk ke asrama seawal 13 tahun. Namun, apa yang mereka tidak sedar ialah aku bukan seperti gelas yang mampu dilihat tembus semudah itu apatah lagi berderai setelah dijatuhkan pada cubaan pertama. Selama ini aku telah menjadi seperti plastik. Mampu menampung seberat-berat isi namun akhirnya rebah juga pada keadaan yang keterlaluan namun aku sedar yang setakat itu masih tidak memuaskan. Aku seharusnya menjadi besi, mampu tahan segala beban, tekanan dan ke'extreme'an. Tapi bagaimana caranya? Aku harus berserah kepada Yang Maha Kuasa, Allah SWT. Allah tidak akan menguji kita sekiranya kita tidak dapat menghadapi dugaan tersebut. Aku harus percaya pada diriku yang aku mampu menghadapi dugaan dan ujian dari Allah SWT. Aku harus buktikan pada semua bahawa aku tidak mudah jatuh. Kalaupun aku rebah, aku akan bangkit dan berusaha hingga mencapai yang terbaik. Membanggakan kedua ibu bapaku yang hanya mengharapkan yang terbaik untukku. Mereka hanya memikirkan segala yang terbaik untukku dan tidak pernah meminta balasan. Aku harap segala pencapaianku cukup untuk membanggakan mereka.

Segalanya aku serah kepada Allah Yang Maha Esa.


PS: Pardon my inability to write better. aku memang xreti tulis bertemakan keagamaan...

Earthquake!!! RUN!!!

Assalamualaikum~

Oh no!! YES...today I'm not kidding about the earthquake stuff. It's real!!! I was in a hall with my fellow batchmates when suddenly I felt like the floor was shaking. Initially I thought that it was because of some guys/girls jumping cause I really didn't think that earthquake was even possible there. But I was clearly wrong! It seemed that was the first time it happened since three years ago in Jakarta.

SITUATION IN THE HALL
Everyone was talking..minding their own business
Some went to musollah to pray and since I've prayed earlier I stayed in the hall with the other talkative medic students...
I was planning on sleeping but the others were too loud, I just couldn't. (I was extremely exhausted!!!! It felt like 2 years sitting on that chair...+PBL(problem-based learning) session earlier was frustrating 'cause my groupmates couldn't understand most of what I said and I couldn't understand them at all! ARGH!!!)
Then, when my facilitator was distributing the transparency for tomorrow's presentation, I felt the quake. It was strong. The hall was like all over the place. Left right front back. It was scary! At that moment, I kept thinking about my parents and family back home. Am I going to be able to see them again, etc?
But the weird thing was that they didn’t ‘allow’ us to get out of the building. So, I felt the shake like from the start till the end when I was sitting on the small chair (it was very tight, I could barely get out of it).
Horrifying experience. I found out that it was 7.3 SR. That is very high and it could also lead to a tsunami. Oh no no no no...huhuh
Hmm...nothing else to say. That’s it then.

Assalamualaikum~


Listening to: Toothpaste Kisses by The Maccabees

Catch Me

Assalamualaikum~

Demi Lovato released her second album Here We Go Again not too long ago and I got the chance to listen to some of the songs...and personally, I think the first one has more song that are catchy and nice to listen to but this album too has some good songs in it such as her new single, Here We Go Again, Catch Me, Everytime You Lie, etc.

Here I want to share with you guys the lyrics of Catch Me which I find very nice..

Before I fall too fast
Kiss me quick
But make it last
So I can see how badly this will hurt me
When you say goodbye

Keep it sweet
Keep it slow
Let the future pass
And don't let go
But tonight I could fall too soon under this beautiful moonlight

But you're so hypnotising
You got me laughing while I sing
You got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unravelling
And your love is where I'm falling
But please don't catch me

See this heart
Won't settle down
Like a child running scared from a clown
I'm terrified of what you'll do
my stomach screams just when I look at you

Run far away
So I can breath
Even though your far from suffocating me
I can't set my hopes too high
Cuz every hello ends with a goodbye

But you're so hypnotising
You've got me laughing while I sing
You've got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unravelling
Your love is where I'm falling
But please don't catch me

So now you see
Why I'm scared
I can't open up my heart without a care
But here I go
It's what I feel
and for the first time in my life I know it's real

But you're so hypnotising
You've got me laughing while I sing
You've get me smiling in my sleep
And i can see this unravelling
And your love is where I'm falling
So please don't catch me

And if this is love
Please don't break me
I'm giving up
So just catch me

Listening to: Catch Me by Demi Lovato

Spiderwebs...

Assalamualaikum~

Ahh...it's been awhile! I can see spiderwebs hanging at the edges of this page...ahahaha just kidding! It's just that I've been very buzy doing nothing that I couldn't even muster even an ounce of muscle to write something, anything interesting on this useless blog. Now, my life is so boring that nothing's worth mentioning.

My class will start on 14th September and I think that it will be much more exciting than just sitting and staring at my lappie the whole day. Though at most times I loathe lectures...who doesn't?

Well, to Muslims... Happy fasting~

Ramadhan Kembali!!!

Assalamualaikum~

Hari ni saye nk tulis dlm bahase Melayu pasar la...hihihi
Seperti yg kite sume tau, Ramadhan Al-Mubarak kembali selepas menyepikan "diri" hampir setahun...dan seperti biase, umat Islam perlu menunaikan kewajipan masing2 dengan berpuasa selama sebulan di bulan Ramadhan ni...*rukun Islam ke-3 tu!!* Jgn ponteng puase plak ye kwn2!!!

Di bulan yg mulia inilah yg kite patut memperbanyakkan amalan kite...tp bkn nk kate bulan ni je kne bt amalan, bulan2 len pun kne jugak but byk manfaat yg kite dpt pd bulan ni la kn...Solat Tarawih, solat witir, membaca Al-Qur'an, mendlami Al-Qur'an...di mase2 senggang kite ni ape kate kite isikan dengan sume yg tlh disebut td...kan lagi senang rase idup ni...huhuhu

Alhamdulillah kite ade peluang lg untuk berpuase dan bersolat tarawih di tahun ni...saye sgt bersyukur kerana bkn senang nk buang rase kemalasan dlm diri kite ni...puase tu saje dh menguatkan daya menahan diri kite kn...nafsu ni jgn diikutkan sgt! bleh bawa nahas diri je...

Tp rindu jugak saye kt rumah kt Malaysia tu. Tiap2 ari puase sure akan beli makanan dr bazaar Ramadhan dkt2 rumah tu ataupon mak yg masak...huhuhu rindunye!!! *padahal baru seminggu duk Jakarta..mengade2* Ahaha..kalo pegi bazaar tu..air kelapa, kuey teow, ngn kuih melake tu mmg xsah kalo xbeli! Sedap benar...Malangnye xde bazaar la plak kt sini...huhuhu

Oh...tp ingat ye kawan2, jgn mkn terlebih sgt! nnti susah plak nk solat tarawih kang...ahaha (makan bila lapar, berhenti sebelum kenyang!!!)

Sebelum saye terlupe, adalah lebih baik kalo kite bermaaf2an dgn ibu bapa kite, kawan2... supaya amalan dan puase kite diterima oleh Allah~

Oleh itu...saye ingin meminta maaf atas segala kesalahan dan kesilapan yg telah saye lakukan kepada anda yg membace blog ini dan mereka yg saye kenali selama 19tahun saye berade di dunia ini...semoga anda dapat maafkan saye yg tidak sempurna ini...

Okla, tu je kot yg saye nk sampaikan buat mase ni...saye nk ucapkan SELAMAT BERPUASA kpd sume umat Islam di Malaysia, Jakarta dan seluruh dunia...

Oh~ How I Hope...

Assalamualaikum~

Okay...I know people are crazy about Nur Kasih and frankly speaking, I am too. It's such a good drama. I've been meaning to watch it since they started advertising it on the telly. But somehow there's always something preventing me from doing so. Recently I got the chance to do just that. There's this one scene that I like so much that it keeps on playing in my head...

*SPOILER ALERT* for those who haven't watched it, I advise you not to read this paragraph...
Sorry, I couldn't remember which episode but surely after the 8th. It was the part where Katrina was mad at Adam(post imprisonment) after he kept on calling her by her full name which was Katrina. Before, he called her Kat which in English sounds like the pet animal, cat.

It got me thinking about MY name...Since I was born till today, I guess only the teachers called me by my real name. It's sad that even I myself feel weird saying it out loud. I only hope that people can call me by my real name...That would be nice!

P/S: I LOVE my name and it has a great meaning which is "The Light Of Love" or something like that~ (Cahaya Pencinta)

Send It On!!!

Assalamualaikum~

Walt Disney has launched “Disney’s Friends for Change” and recently they recorded a song called "Send It On" by the Jonas Brothers, Miley Cyrus, Selena Gomez and Demi Lovato. Other Disney stars also take part in this noble project.

The Disney’s Friends for Change: Project Green invites young people to join together to help the environment in every way they can like switching off lights when not in use, reduce water usage,
etc.

A word's just a word
Till you mean what you say
And love isn't love
Till you give it away
We've all got to give
Yeah something to give to make a change

Send it on
On and on
Just one hand can heal another
Be a part
Reach a heart
Just one spark starts a fire
With one little action
The chain reaction will never stop
Make us strong
Shine a light and send it on

Just smile and the world will smile along with you
That small act of love
That's meant for one will become two
If we take the chances
To change circumstances
Imagine all we could do
If we...

Send it on
On and on
Just one hand can heal another
Be a part
Reach your heart
Just one spark starts a fire
With one little action
The chain reaction will never stop
Make us strong
Shine a light and send it on
Send it on

There's power in all of the choices we make
So I'm starting now there's not a moment to wait

A word's just a word
Until you mean what you say
And love isn't love
Until you give it away

Send it on
On and on
Just one hand can heal another
Be a part
Reach your heart
Just one spark starts a fire
With one little action
The chain reaction will never stop
Make us strong
Shine a light and send it on
Send it on

Send it on
On and on
Just one hand can heal another
Be a part
Reach your heart
Just one spark starts a fire
With one little action
The chain reaction will help things start
Make us strong
Shine a light and send it on
Shine a light and send it on
Shine a light and send it on

Listening to: Send It On by the Disney Stars

Love Is On Its Way...

Assalamualaikum~

Here's the lyrics of "Love On Its Way" by The Jonas Brothers. It's such a lovely song...even though they're just repeating the same lines over and over...ahaha

Young hearts
I believe that we are not far
From becoming who we truly are
Love is on its way

Dreamers
You see everything in colour
While the world is getting darker
Love is on its way

So hold on another day
'Cause love is on its way
You'll find it's gonna be okay
'Cause love is on its way

It's alright you'll find a brighter day
'Cause love is on its way

Leaders
Show us how to love each other
It could help us to recover
Love is on its way

Lonely
I believe that you will find me
And together we will truly see
Love is on its way, yeah

So hold on another day
'Cause love is on its way
You'll find it's gonna be okay
'Cause love is on its way

It's alright you'll find a brighter day
'Cause love is on its way

Yeah! Yeah!

Hold on another day
'Cause love is on its way
You'll find it's gonna be okay
'Cause love is on its way

It's alright you'll find a brighter day
'Cause love is on its way
'Cause love is on its way
'Cause love is on its way

© JONAS BROTHERS PUBLISHING LLC; SIMPLE DAYS MUSIC; SONY/ATV SONGS LLC

Listening to: Love Is On Its Way by Jonas Brothers