Lately...

Assalamualaikum...

:: Bismillahirrahmanirrahim ::

To Muhd Adif *whoever you are*, nmpknye saye xdpt kawal my nervousness during the exam this morning. My hands were practically shaking that little girl's arm. I'm pretty sure Dr Wong and the little girl's mother saw that. *embarrassed* Luckily I didn't go blank. I saw the marking sheet Dr Wong had on the table and she checked a lot of zeros. Well, nothing can be changed now. So, let us forget about it. Unless I have to do SP on this. Huaaa...

Lately...

Dreams...

Assalamualaikum~

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

Semalam, saye bermimpi ttg interview. Sblumnye, saye telah terbincang pasal interview sewaktu makan pecel ayam bersame2 Piko, Deb, Faaza n Tiqah. Entah macam mane boleh timbul topik yang saye xbrpe suke ni, sy pon xtau la. Interview mmg xpenah selari dengan saye. I never had a great or at least a good memory about them. The last one I had was before masuk Unity. Untuk scholarship. Sweaty hands, jittery, trembling dah macam Parkinson dh. Saye masih ingat waktu sebelum dipanggil untuk masuk ke bilik interview, saye mintak kawan sebelah yang juge namenye same dgn saye sehelai tissue sebab tangan saye dh basah. And bile masuk bilik interview, berjabat tgn dengan interviewers tu, dorg tny..."nervous ke?" Haaaa...mane xnervous!

And then, mase tido...termimpi diinterview. Huaah! Oleh sape? Saye xingat, tapi pastinye org femes la. Alamak, sapekah org itu? Lupe sungguh. Xpe la. Dalam mimpi tu, saye lebih confident but still xcukup fluent mungkin cara saye deliver my ideas, etc. Waktu tu jugak saye nmpk die seakan2 reject application letter saye. Ntah la. Sampai ke mimpi juge saye xdpt tackle interview ni eh? Adehhh.

Memang saye xboleh bile dijadikan centre. I don't like the attention and I do not ask for it. Low self-esteem? Mungkin. Low self-confidence. Most probably. Saye sudah cube untuk memboost up my confidence and all tapi somehow die xberkesan secara permanent. Every time, symptoms yang same timbul.

Sebelum exam tadi, saye duduk sebelah seorang kawan. And I told her that my hands were shaking pretty heavily. Then, she said..."Macam mane la ko nnti kalo nk disarung cincin?" *mase akad nikah* Saye mampu gelak je. Sebab saye ade feeling yang sangat kuat mengatakan saye akan terketar2 walaupun bukan saye yang menyarung. Huahuhuhu. Then kitorg sambung membuat lawak tentang ketar2 ni. Kononnye waktu nak ditgkp gmbr, tgn saye xnmpk sebab terketar2. Adohai Asyiqin. Adohai Qila Rahim beng!

Hmmm, macam mane la nk hilangkan nervousness ni eh? Ade sape2 ade nasihat, cadangan?

Childhood memories + random stuff

Assalamualaikum..

Selesai sudah exam integrasi I. Now, we'll have to wait for the second one. Oooh how I am not looking forward to that. Anyway, since this weekend we're free and my room mates are all off to Bandung leaving the room and internet all to myself, I have a lot of time to think and reminisce the old days. Actually, topik ni timbul mase saye and Qiqilala pegi ke warteg untuk membeli makanan tengah hari, and on out way back kitorg terlihat beberape org kanak-kanak bermain sesame mereka. Membuatkan kitorg teringat about our childhood. And I found out that nowadays...not all the kids play as we played during our "era".

Waktu kite kecik dulu, saye pasti korg penah main Toi *ni yg kitorg panggil mase kat Penang dulu* atau Galah Panjang. Walaupun saye penah main sekali sahaje seumur hidup saye, tapi saye ingat detik-detik menarik, exciting itu. So exhilarating. Since saye pon first time main, saye takut2. I didn't know the rules. I just copied what everyone was doing. But I had a really good time. It was tiring. Running here and there, making sure nobody pass your line, preventing the other team from winning or at least stalling them, demotivating them like they didn't have a chance in winning. At the end of the day, stains on our shirts, pants, face even...tired from running all over the place, we had fun. And a chance to exercise. Ahahaha! Banyak lagi game2 mase kite kecik dulu, contohnye main pemadam, tepuk2 kad bagi terbalik, etc.

Batu seremban? Ever heard of that? Ohoho, sape yg xkenal, mau kne pang dr saye. Nak bragging skit. huhuhu... Dulu I was so good at this traditional game, I can go on batu seremban-ing dari start rehat sampai loceng habes rehat berbunyi. Main batu seremban kan perlu buat timbang2 batu tu. And each stone you timbang, akan dapat 2 markah. Kitorg main 7 batu, kalo dapat semua, boleh dapat 14 on one go. Banyak care main batu seremban ni. Bagi yang xtau, di sini saye nk cite sikit *saye tgh bosan, sy mau bercerite~* tentang batu seremban. Ade dua jenis, yang main dengan 5 batu, atau yang main dengan 7 batu. Since saye main dengan 7 batu, I don't really know much about yang 5 batu tu. Care mainnye, Baling ketujuh2 batu tu and ambil satu batu dari batu2 yang dh berselerak atas lantai akibat dibaling tu. The thing here, we have to kutip batu2 tu start dari 1, then 2 batu pastu amek the remaining 3 batu smbil baling ke atas batu first. You know what, saye malas plak nk cite. kalo nk tau, tny kwn2 anda yang tau. Hoho..

Saye just nk cite care berbeza main game. Ade yang amek 1,2,3...ade yang amek 3,2,1...ade juge yang gune sebelah tgn je, pakai tangan kiri, batu xleh lontar lebih dr kepale *this is hard kalo batu jauh2*, ade yang baling pakai tangan lain tapi tgkp gune tgn lain *yes, it's complicated*. Tapi sume2 ni sangat menyeronokkan. Berbanding dengan kanak2 zaman sekarang. Lihat shj adek2 kite, sepupu2 kecik kite...mereka lebih engrossed dengan internet, pusat sumber pembelajaran (psp), ipoo, xboxes 270, weeee, social networking instead of having a normal childhood. Yeah, mungkin some pikir...zaman dah berubah. Zaman dorg, teknologi dh took over. Zaman kite dulu internet blum didedahkan secare meluas. Kanak2 xreti gune internet, xreti chatting. I only knew about chatting mase darjah 6 but saye mule berchatting dgn kawan after abes form 5. Skrg ni? Budak sekolah rendah dh lebih dr berchatting. Mane dorg dpt sume tu? Adekah dari ape yang dorg didedahkan dari kecik? Zaman kite dulu ade macam ni jugak ke?

Memang bukan semua kanak2 skrg cmtu. Tapi saye cume rase sedih bile dapat tau tntg remaje skrg. Macam mane agaknye keadaan 10 tahun akan datang? I'm worried.

Wooohoo. cmne tibe2 bleh masuk topik ni? ahaha...xde fokus tul Asyiqin ni. Mule2 ckp pasal childhood, tibe2 je tukar pasal topik serius. Huhuhu...and ape kaitannye dengan permainan mase kite kecik dgn remaje skrg? Mungkin ade connectionnye somewhere, since saye boleh menjurus ke topik itu.

I am soooo bored right now. Xde mood nk study. Xde mood nak buat ape2. Nak bli kasut but knpe xde kasut yang lawa kat sini? Cais! Haih~

Ade berjute, tapi satu pon xjumpe...

Assalamualaikum~

I hope no one made crazy presumptions about the title of this post. Hehehe..sj nk buat gimik. I'm actually talking about shoes. I've loved shoes all my life. And I don't think I'll ever stop thinking about shoes. Shoes, shoes, shoes... Ahhhh I sooooo love them! When I walk, I always keep my head down. So, I look at shoes more often than I look at people's faces. That's a joke. Please laugh. Ahaha! Gelak sendiri, ntah pape je! Hmmmm, knpe la Asyiqin ni tibe2 ckp pasal kasut ni? There's a reason behind that. It is because I saw a pretty cute, I-know-I-will-absolutely-buy pair of shoes at the musholla this afternoon. White with a little touch of light blue. *just like mine but a bit cuter. Gah!*

Hmmm, rase cm nk cite je cmne saye dpt kasut saye skrg ni. Here goes. My family were planning to go on a trip to "somewhere" and it was no typical trip. It was one of those where all the family members joined. Due to different schedules, it was not an easy task to gather and drag us all on a picnic or anything of that sort. Hmmm, after I came back from Jakarta. I didn't hesitate at all and just started packing and packing. But I forgot something important. I didn't have the shoes for all the walking and travelling. My parents and I went shoe-hunting, went in numerous stores and still couldn't find a pair that I like. I almost gave up. My parents gave up long before we went in the third store. Adohai, sabar je la~ I didn't want to take a pair just for the sake of that trip. Because I would wear them for a long time. So, I wanted to like them first. I've always known to be the one that won't wear or put on something I don't like. My mom says that to me all the time. She doesn't want to choose/buy anything for me cause she knows me too well to not like the things she picks. Ahahah~ Taste org tue xsame ngan org mude. :p

Aih, dh melalut. Ok back to the tragic story. Tragic la sgt! Anyway, I searched for the one that would catch my eyes the moment I see it. There was one, at the bottom of the shelf, hidden, only visible to those who actually look. And luckily I looked. It was almost closing time, and my parents and I were tired from all the walking and browsing and searching. So, I decided to just settle with that pair. I had a few in mind though all through the searching and browsing and looking around.

This is what I had in mind. Something girly-like. Not too bulky. SIMPLE.

Oh3, I've been eying a few Skechers shoes too. What do you call those eh? Sandals? Ahh, xtau la. I'll just call them shoes. senang cite. :D Cam nk promote la plak. hikhik...saye cop dulu, korg jgn bli! hehehe...just kidding~

This one is called Klementine. They come in different colours.

Them being black, white, pink, yellow, etc.

Black~

Jubilee: Oh Snap!

*ni name kasut tu, bukan monolog ye~*

Knpe susah nk cari kasut Nike perempuan cmni eh? Cais!

Erm, dh byk ckp pasal kasut je. I think I better stop. Ok, tu je nk cakap. Buyyyyy. Salam~

[Edited]

Ahaa!!! I found the name of the shoes. The pair that looked a bit like mine. It's called Nike Air Zoom Mystify IV.

Ni kasut tennis.

I found a pair of shoes on the internet that I really really really like but I guess I'm too late to realize about it. Before this, byk btul kasut2 ni saye nmpk di kedai Nike waktu die famous dulu but saye seakan2 xperasan lgsg akan kewujudan die. Skrg, dh xjumpe lgsg. Mungkin dh xdikeluarkan lg dh kot. huhuhuhuh...mane saye nk cari kasut tu now ?? T,T *sedey yg amat!*

Sape2 yang jumpe kasut ni, sile inform saye ok~ I want these shoes...badly!

Ping Ping Ping~

Assalamualaikum...

Tajuk post ini has nothing to do with what I'm going to write. Ok, like I said before, my obsession with korean stuff has resurfaced and beginning to take over my mind and body. *really?* Hmm, what I mean is that everything that has to do with korea, I'll instantly turn gaga and obsess over it. Tipu3! Saye xobses sangat pon. Cumenye saye suke je~ Heeee! And now I feel like wantin

g an instant camera. You know, the one that prints out pictures the second you take one. Ahaaa!! I want a camera like that. Why suddenly? Because I watched those korean dramas *You're Beautiful to be exact* and reality TV shows *esp We Got Married*, and they were using this very cute instant camera and instant pictures being developed *btul ke penggunaan word ni? hmmm~*.

Another factor that contributes to this obsession of mine is when I found my very old camera that uses negatives. I like those kinds of photos. The ones you can hold, admire and write or scribble on. Or maybe tear it into pieces. Hehehe...nonono. Just kidding. A picture is worth a thousand words. Whatever those words may be, it means something, the picture. If it's bitter or sweet memories, we should always cherish them. Those memories la yang kite nk ingat balik bile dh tue2 nnti. Eceyy~ Percaye la ckp Asyiqin yang memang pelupe ni. I only wish I could remember all those sweet memories during my school years, childhood. Haaaa...rindu. If only I have pictures to help me recall those memories. So, memandangkan saye malas nk pegi kedai utk develop film tu, ape kate bli camera yang boleh instantly kuarkan gmbr. Ahhaaa!

Hah! Asyiqin dh mengarut pasal pictures plak. Ok, back to the topic. Nowadays, people only need to save the pictures they've taken into their laptop, thousands and thousands of them. Well, best sebenarnye ade gmbr banyak2. But kalo kite ade limited picture to take, for sure kite nk amek yang meaningful je kan? Haaa, kan best cmtu. Xde la kite tgkp gmbr mengarut2, org korek hidung la, org makan tepi jalan makan bakso malang, gmbr rumput, gmbr tiang lampu, etc. Actually for pros, those little things means everything to them, but who am I to compare to those pros? I'm just a normal girl wanting an instant camera that I, myself know nothing about. I'm lower than beginner. Ahaha. I just want to capture meaningful pictures that the older, kereput me would cry when looking at them, and want to explain everything about every single pic to my grandchildren and children. Amboih, jauhnye Asyiqin~

So, which camera have I set my eyes on? Knowing my character, of course la the cute one! Ahaha!! Fujifilm Instax Mini 25. This camera lebih automatic berbanding Instax Mini 7S *yg Alma pny tu!*. I actually like Instax Mini 7S because lebih manual, I want to play with the settings. But I don't want to pick the same camera as Alma. Booo!!! Alma xcomel! *tapi kamera Alma comel, huhu* But since I'm not even a beginner in this photography world, I think auto seems better for me. I want the manual! Huhuhu. So, here are some photos that I found in the internet. :P

Kyaaaa! Look how cute it is. I like the colour. Very3 much.

This here is a custom zipper instax mini 25 camera case.

Neomu gwiyeobda! Jeongmal!

Instax Mini 25 vs Instax Mini 7S. Hmm~

So, there you go! Punye panjang entry nk ckp pasal kemahuan saye akan camera instant ni je. Adeh~ Pape pon, saye blum survey harge pon. Ntah2 mahal gile smpi terkopak purse saye. Kuikuikui... Org berjimat sebab hal yang lebih penting, tapi saye plak nk berjimat sebab camera ni, sgt xpatut. Ish3. *geleng kepale*

Trouble...

Assalamualaikum.

Tulis, padam, tulis, padam. That's what I've been doing. I want to write something, plenty of things actually but I guess I think too much that eventually couldn't even complete a sentence. I thought of what people might think, that maybe I might regret writing those things that I wanted to tell everyone. I put on so much thought on every single sentence. Searching for the right words. Even the right words may hurt people without me knowing. I fear that the most. I know that when I'm actually talking to a person, my brain couldn't really process the way it's supposed to and somehow I blurt out things that I know would hurt them. And when that happens, I couldn't say that one word, "sorry". Apparently, sorry really seems to be the hardest word.

I have soooooo many things to say, but I can't write them. I just can't.

Aha...Dah jumpe satu lagi hobby saye. Or mungkin habit saye. Memendam rase.

Hmmmmm, self-discovery. Interesting~

Eeeeeppp!! Stickers~

Assalamualaikum...

Aha! Jajang....Presenting Asyiqin the gedik~ Now, I'm even gediker. Wanna know why? Because somehow, I don't know why, out of the blue...my femininity surfaces. Ahaha...what does that have to do with stickers? I have no idea. Meeeerong! Let me be! It's my blog, I can say anything! *well, actually, I can't. Xpasal2 kne saman plak. Teehee~*

Hmmm...I want to show whoever is reading this...something. What I've become. From the rocker chick Asyiqin...to the graceful, down-to-earth, soft-spoken Asyiqin. *biar!* Okay2, I'm just joking around. Nononono...I'm still the same. Makin comel je~ Kuang3.

Ni keyboard laptop saye. Before...

After~ Ni setelah dilekatkan dengan stickers!

Comel kan? Comel kan? Comel kan?! Tgk3, ade hangul alphabets (huruf korea) plak tu~ hikhikhik...I'm overly excited right now. Ahaaa...and I bought a new pencil case since I left the one with all my stationery at home. *Haish, kicap cap kipas pon lupe. Sume bnde2 penting jugak yang tinggal kat rumah. Adehhhh =.=' * Pencil case pon warne perempuan. Someone once told me to buy/wear things other than black. Yes, I know. I'm too dull. Black, black, black...cm xde warne lain je. Kan dh kuar kefemininanku~ Abes sume nk pink. :p Qila yg pengaruh~

Ni plak. My new pencil case. Kecik je sebab stationery pon xde sgt. :'(

Oh, skrg juge kegilaan saye terhadap korea dh resurface. Lame die menghilang kerane disappointment yang disebabkan oleh abg sy. Long story, mls nk cite. :P

*Ape yg sy buat pagi2 bute ni? Huaaa! I want to sleep!! Dah, itu sj~